Day One

So here it goes! I have had so much to think about this weekend. I met two new wonderful woman who have struggled with trials recently. One is near and dear to my heart because she has gone on the infertility journey and has PCOS. But she has her miracle baby!!! I got to hold this almost 4 month old baby for hours on my chest and just relax. It was such a release. It is an example to me that when I pray to be given a baby that it is not that I should ask for a baby to be mine. But to ask for the gift of being able to care, teach, and love a baby that is our Heavenly Father's. These babies are not "ours" to claim. They belong to God. We are just trusted with them for a period of time on this earth. I am privileged to have my son to watch over and love. He is a child of God.

The second woman I got the amazing privilege to get to know is a pillar of strength to me. I don't know that she feels that she is a pillar, but I do. She recently lost a baby that she delivered sleeping (not alive) at an almost full term birth. It was known that this would probably happen since earlier on in the pregnancy and she chose to not terminate and place it in the Lord's hands. She and her spouse and daughter are incredible. Even just talking with her brought me peace to know that she is being strong when it is hard, walking though she may be faint, and has not given up. My trials seem so trivial to me now. They are still hard at times, but if others can be so much stronger than me then I can make it!

As for my journey:

I am stronger than I ever have been and my testimony of my Savior is intact and permanent. I am so excited that I started my cycle yesterday. I will go in for my day 3 u/s tomorrow to make sure my ovaries and uterus are ready for this cycle and then begin my month if I get the go ahead. I am excited but moderately so. It is hard to allow myself to think about it too much, but I am excited for our adventure. Life is so interesting, you just never know what is around the corner. Here's hoping though!